Exact same boat here. My motivation died around 30 (34 now) once I realized I wasn't going to make any kind of impact on humanity. So now it's harder and harder to answer the question of "what's the point?". Whereas, drinks with friends or walks by the sea never seem to give rise to that question in the first place.
So even though I still like to read about interesting things, once any initial curiosity has been satisfied, I'm out, there is no depth to the learning anymore, and soon enough you forget it all anyway.
> My motivation died around 30 (34 now) once I realized I wasn't going to make any kind of impact on humanity.
Seeing your confidence in that outlook, if you permit me an intrusion, I'd go so far as to say, you probably could say "decided" instead of "realized" and it would be accurate.
There are decades ahead for most people at that age. And instead of starting from scratch like an infant, you already have a lot of things going for you. If you were a close friend, I'd have badgered you relentlessly to believe in yourself. I hope as an internet stranger, I can plant a seed of belief in your mind.
Most people are capable of far more than they believe. Good luck!
Hey nmlnn. Thanks for posting this. I'm a shy past 24, and I came to the same conclusion. Nothing matters, we're all small and insignificant-pale-blue-dot-and-all-that. I also lose interest once the shininess and allure wears off. This mindset can be freeing; nothing matters so do what makes you happy. The closest answer I've got is to work a basic job at Costco/Trader Joe's/etc. and chill through life, while focusing on simple pleasures like drinks with friends, etc.
many things also dont make sense to learn now when i have a decent salary.
Why should i learn howto setup a raspberry pi with a bunch of stuff, when i can just buy commercial products thats does the same things and much better?
If i dont want to create something unique thats not on the market of course. But then i use up all my thinking and creativity at work and i have run out of ideas to create truly unique things.
Also the time it takes to learn and make things is too valuable for me, i rather spend that time on interacting with other people.
So even though I still like to read about interesting things, once any initial curiosity has been satisfied, I'm out, there is no depth to the learning anymore, and soon enough you forget it all anyway.