Honestly, I'm sorry people treated you that way. I actually know the cause of my depression and it's something I can't really solve at the moment unless a miracle happens (that is if miracles exist). Thanks for your response
I hope they help. For me the main take-away was that your brain needs rest, which is not the same as recreation. Be kind to your brain and digest in manageable chunks :)
I eventually started doing Ironman triathlons. There was something different about those compared to other things like marathons.
But I also wasn't as depressed as a lot of clinically depressed people are. But it could literally be a matter of volume.
But I learned a lot about myself, and once you do an Ironman even once, you have some confidence about doing something really really hard, and you have a (minor) superpower while you're in shape to do one.
So it might be a matter of volume. It might be a jog doesn't sufficiently trigger a subconscious feeling of accomplishment that a longer distance will.
It could be triathlons give you Napoleon Dynamite skills in more that one thing. Nice thing with exercise: you can do lots of things to get it, so try branching out from running. Lift a bit, yoga bit, bike a bit, swim a bit, X-C ski a bit, shoot buckets, trail run, etc.