I don't want to sound like I am looking for pity here, but at what point, is it OK to give up? My first fail was back at 2009, a full interview cycle with Microsoft. After I was rejected by AWS a few weeks ago (also a full cycle interview, no offer), I realize that I have spent a decade, on and off, trying to get employed by big tech. Since I am not getting any younger, spent countless hours preparing, reading and re-reading Cracking The Code Interview, and I don't feel like I am getting any better or closer, I am looking for some closure. I believe perseverance is an important quality, but also, I don't want to spend another decade through all this. I have been always employed, in not so sexy corporations, but I have earned a living, raised my son, and supported my family, that still lives in a third world country, and without my support they would had been homeless years ago. Sometimes I feel like my efforts were more of an ego trip, just to show off how smart I am, that I was hired by Google. And that's where I am right now. I am unsure how to feel.
Immigration. I came to the US (specifically to Indianapolis) about 12 years ago. I acquired citizenship in 2016. And yet, I have failed to integrate to this community. I have no friends, just co-workers. And I feel like I already tried everything: meetup, book clubs, bar trivia, you name it. It does not help the current political climate, in which we are guilty of all the disgraces that occur here. I am contemplating going back to Colombia, but the career prospects look real bad. Career wise I am doing terrific, I make good money, own a house, have no debt. But I am so fucking alone.
