Do you have a portfolio site? I had a 5 year hiatus from dev work and got a high paying software job within a year of trying.
1. Read numerous hacker news comments for advice.
2. Did freelance work for cheap but targeted jobs that I could learn highly desired skills (React, webpack, etc..)
3. Built a portfolio site with freelance work examples.
4. Applied to tons of jobs and got one.
I also had to try extremely hard and live in Seattle which helps too. To be honest by the sound of your post your mind set is in a not so great place which is understandable.
1. Read numerous hacker news comments for advice.
2. Did freelance work for cheap but targeted jobs that I could learn highly desired skills (React, webpack, etc..)
3. Built a portfolio site with freelance work examples.
4. Applied to tons of jobs and got one.
I also had to try extremely hard and live in Seattle which helps too. To be honest by the sound of your post your mind set is in a not so great place which is understandable.
Perseverance