Extremely. Mostly can't focus, can barely get out of bed at all some days. Some people are trying to help with various aspects of this, and they're doing some good, but they're poorly coordinated and there's secondary damage when they get things wrong.
Out of money. I was trying to get my career back into play via Triplebyte + one or two contacts around the beginning of the year; I had some minor success, but my interviews promptly got cancelled as the pandemic ramped up. And I think my Résumé of Nothing is now even more of an infinite liability than it's been in any recent years. (I took enough of a hit at the end of 2018 to pretty much lose my ability to work, after some years of on-and-off self-underemployment, and spent 2019 trying to recover; what I managed to regain has mostly been undone again in 2020.) Oh, and video calls and screen sharing (things people want a lot of nowadays) are both tricky due to secondary effects.
I finally have a source of medication that requires less effort to keep going, and that might help stabilize. Wish me luck?
I don't normally post things like this out of the blue, but if anyone has small software things they might be willing to commission me for within the next few-to-several months where turnaround time isn't “right now”, that could help a lot, so don't hesitate to poke me at my profile email address, low-effort one-liners accepted. (I have a partial source of work lined up for once I can focus again, but it's fraught in its own ways.)
My most native domain is oldish/systemsish/Unixish (Go, C, shell scripting, Perl…) but I can be fairly polyvalent in environments overall. Have done some previous work on things like Tor and OpenVPN. Ideal is something like “this bug/feature-request has been nagging at us and could use a fresh set of eyes”. Specific strengths historically include informal-methods precision of modeling and ability to haul The Good Stuff out of semantic mud. Specific weak areas include PHP being too psychologically taxing, Node.js likely being the same (which, ah, er, ouch given current SV culture), and flakiness from the depression itself (expected to improve with medication, but not 100% and exact curve unknown).
Posting this as a separate comment so it's easier to delete on its own if it turns out to be inappropriate. Also, to avoid surprise: I don't make my legal name too immediately visible from profiles etc. presently, but anyone who's transacting with me will get a confirmation of it privately.
Good luck! Glad you found a more stable source of meds, that's clutch.
Try to find ways to talk up that resume. I was under-employed for a long time but I was also working out of the hackerspace every day. I milked eeeeeevery project I even tangentally got involved in. Helped some kid flash an arduino? "Tutored microcontroller development". Have 2-3 projects you can really talk in detail on, and the rest is just fluff.
Out of money. I was trying to get my career back into play via Triplebyte + one or two contacts around the beginning of the year; I had some minor success, but my interviews promptly got cancelled as the pandemic ramped up. And I think my Résumé of Nothing is now even more of an infinite liability than it's been in any recent years. (I took enough of a hit at the end of 2018 to pretty much lose my ability to work, after some years of on-and-off self-underemployment, and spent 2019 trying to recover; what I managed to regain has mostly been undone again in 2020.) Oh, and video calls and screen sharing (things people want a lot of nowadays) are both tricky due to secondary effects.
I finally have a source of medication that requires less effort to keep going, and that might help stabilize. Wish me luck?