|Looking for a job though already feels like being disloyal.
Not to be offensive, but you're brainwashed. You should be thinking about yourself. Why are you sacrificing your career, happiness, quality of life, and opportunities to a company that sounds like they're using/abusing you--low pay, no equity, bad work environment.
If they're so dependent on you, then you should be compensated accordingly. Your value to the company and your pay are directly related.
Not to be offensive, but you're brainwashed. You should be thinking about yourself. Why are you sacrificing your career, happiness, quality of life, and opportunities to a company that sounds like they're using/abusing you--low pay, no equity, bad work environment.
If they're so dependent on you, then you should be compensated accordingly. Your value to the company and your pay are directly related.