I dunno, I think OP may be right. I was in the same boat: I thought I hated programming, then one day I realized I just hated the industry wrapper around it. I recognize some of that process stuff can be valuable, but it's hard to disentangle the good stuff from the trash. Much of it is cargo cult, article-driven thinking that does nobody any good. A few years ago I switched to design, and now I just program in my spare time for fun. And it is fun when you do it right.