> But the constant reality is that I will never ever be able to do all the things in my brain. It’s a severely frustrating and depressing fact I feel faced with every day. A world of highs and disappointment.

This really rings true with me. The excitement of the new project, and then the crushing realisation that I can't trust myself to put in the work to build it. Rinse and repeat.

I have no answers, but to say you're not alone. I do build things, sometimes.