I'm right there with you. I can type faster than I can think, with very little effort. But I can't write and think at the same time. If I took handwritten notes in class, I didn't remember anything that was said. And I couldn't keep up, and it was illegible so I got nothing. Just listening was far better for me. I didn't know it in college, but I'd been diagnosed with dysgraphia as a very young child and was never told. Do an image search for adult dysgraphia handwriting examples. From your description I'd surprised if you couldn't find an example that was very close to yours. Like most learning differences it comes with some strengths, but knowing what advice doesn't apply to you is important.