Maybe not the solution you're looking for but...pick something else?
If you're below average after 7 years and unemployed for the last 3, it makes one wonder why you keep trying to do this? You're a decade in and it isn't working out. That's okay. There are millions of other things people do to support themselves.
What else do you enjoy? It might not pay as well as being a programmer, but it probably pays better than being an unemployed programmer. Why keep your wagon hitched to this one path?
It doesn't sound like this is the path for you. I don't know what voice is telling you otherwise, but I wanted to add mine in to say you don't have to keep trying to do this.
If you're below average after 7 years and unemployed for the last 3, it makes one wonder why you keep trying to do this? You're a decade in and it isn't working out. That's okay. There are millions of other things people do to support themselves.
What else do you enjoy? It might not pay as well as being a programmer, but it probably pays better than being an unemployed programmer. Why keep your wagon hitched to this one path?
It doesn't sound like this is the path for you. I don't know what voice is telling you otherwise, but I wanted to add mine in to say you don't have to keep trying to do this.