I'm the same, and similarly, the idea of taking a pill to make it go away is terrifying.
I have to keep myself very disciplined on the "helpful" medications I do allow into my life because I know how easy it'd be for me to get hooked and start depending on the meds to avoid my problems. Instead I've been working on training myself to see through my nerves.
Alcohol at least has the drawback that the few times I've had it, I've had such an awful experience that I don't associate it with avoiding my problems.
I have to keep myself very disciplined on the "helpful" medications I do allow into my life because I know how easy it'd be for me to get hooked and start depending on the meds to avoid my problems. Instead I've been working on training myself to see through my nerves.
Alcohol at least has the drawback that the few times I've had it, I've had such an awful experience that I don't associate it with avoiding my problems.