I don't know. It's all a mix of factors, but it's basically "been there, done that". The last times I was really excited about the jobs, nowadays I have this doom feeling it will be the same experience over again. Maybe burnout, maybe being too privileged to fail and still somehow make ends.

That said, I forced being motivated, and I did whatever took, and still failed interviews. So, now I know it's not on my hands to pass or not.