Relative to most, I've done a lot of math. I have an entire bookshelf dedicated to it, subscribed to journals for a number of years. I worked in cryptography for a while.

The only things I ever think are "why is this presented in such a convoluted manner" or "Why is this so poorly written".

The idea of "beautiful" is so remarkably far removed from the situation --- it would be as if people said they found it sexually arousing.

To me, there is no possible connection.

> I've done a lot of math... I worked in cryptography for a while.

Weirldy, that could be the reason. Doing something beautiful (art, math, etc) for $ usually ends up corrupting it for the person. I did not mean any offense.

Source: Psychology research I am lazy to link and myself.

I'm not living a romantic loss-of-beauty through corrupting money narrative though.

It was not beautiful when I was 5, 15, or 25. I found it a useful tool and that interested me, but aesthetics? no - never.

Sorry to crash the party

I am not doubting your account. I also know there are genuine asexuals.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Asexuality

I'm not a mathematician or anything close and even I can find it quite beautiful... that is, the parts I can grok. :)

I still think some of the Cantor and Gödel work is the most beautiful I've come across that was not from a prolific Swiss polymath.

And I wonder how much musical training or experience you have. Like mathematics, there is a lifetime (and more) of music theory to grok that will aid in the enjoyment of music.