I used to have major depression. When I was in the military I nearly killed myself when I snuck a bullet from the rifle range back to my barracks. I was deeply in pain.

I think people who feel this way definitely need to seek help. I was lucky in that I didn't have to. What solved the worst of it for me was going out and being with people, having success (and epic failures) with dating.

Even though the depression never really neared suicidal levels again I was still mostly sad and I didn't realize this until many years later when I took some MDA. I hadn't ever done drugs before except some minor pot and MDA showed me the difference between what I had been feeling and what it was possible for me to feel like. I only took MDA a few times in my life and it's been over a decade since, but I learned from those experiences what kinds of things made me feel better and what it was possible to feel like and I've strived to achieve those feelings without taking drugs.

Now I feel happiness by achieving goals, being around people I love, having silent moments to myself, exercising, managing my stress levels and listening to music that makes me feel better.

It's not always a rose garden, life can be tough, but I never really feel like those awful pains of despair I lived in as a young adult.